Little O' This, My Girl, Pregnancy

Inwards

I remember it happening in the final days of my pregnancy with Avelyn, this quieting of the spirit as I prepared for my life to change.  It’s happening again, as I contemplate what it will mean to be a mother of two, the miracle my body is about to perform for a second time, and the things I am fearing and anticipating about the new baby’s arrival.  Nature seems to have a way of drawing a woman inward and causing her to see the days leading up to delivery in a different light.  I find myself staring off into space and not fully present in the midst of the tasks my hands find through the course of the day.  Which is also, perhaps, why things have been so quiet on the blog front (that, and the fact that I’ve been playing nurse to two invalids all week).

I am less than two weeks from my due date and am feeling both ready and completely ill-equipped to meet this baby.  Avelyn has been exceptionally demanding and difficult in the past few days and I have found myself wondering, while ripping out clumps of my hair, how on earth I am going to have the patience to deal with her ferocity when I am a sleep-deprived mess.  But, I am neither the first nor last woman who will have to do this, and I will make it through (with the help of a digital aardvark named Arthur who has helped me maintain some semblance of sanity these past few months of my toddler’s refusal to nap).

I love you, Arthur.

13 Comments

  • I know we talked already today, but I neglected to tell you how giddy I am to meet who is in there.

    You are one of the strongest people I know. You will be FINE.

  • I love that ‘reflecting inward’ stage. I don’t know what it is about it but it’s just something so deep and meaningful. Enjoy these last few weeks with just you and Avelyn, these last few moments of pregnancy, these days of reflection.

  • I loved that stage too. And those feelings of not knowing how I would handle it with two,is why I am not yet having the second! But I am sure that you will overcome whatever the next few months throws your way with grace and fortitude (you like that big word?) and style and humour. And Arthur. And lots of coffee. Hope you sickies are better soon.

  • Good luck, Amanda. You’re in my thoughts.

  • Best of luck!!! You will do great. Those girls are SO lucky to have you for their mom.

  • I can’t wait until I reach that point, I remember it clearly from the last pregnancy. For the time being I am still a crazed maniac in the midst of a house remodel who still doesn’t know where this kid is going to sleep. Without a curious little monkey named George I’d have gone off the deep end months ago.

    You’ll be a fantastic mom of two sweet little girls.

  • wow..we are all excited to hear about your new little bundle! 2 more weeks..wow.

  • I would like to ditto Jen, cause she’s cool and it was perfectly said!

  • I love Arthur too!!!

    You’re probably sick of hearing this; but, I’m sure you’ll do great! You’re a tough cookie and a great mom, you can do it!

    Looking forward to seeing pictures of the brand new babe!

  • Oh Amanda! Being up there last week the craziness was obvious… but even from the outside it was clear that that peace had come into you. I just want to affirm that I witness a glimpse of the readying…. miraculous!

    You are awesome, and you are going to be awesome in this next season. Love you.

  • You’ll do great! Blessings to you!

  • You’re right in that you’re not the first…but that doesn’t help when you’re in the midst of chaos with a toddler and a newborn. :) Wish I lived close because I’d love to come over and help out! :)

    I wish you the best and you’ll be in my thoughts. Good luck!! (I hope to be in the same position in a couple of years!)

  • It is so hard… but it’s also been the best two months of my life so far. You’ll be fine…

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