The Nitty Gritty
Last week’s weight:Â 156
This week’s weight:Â 155
A whole whopping pound! I know, I know, slow weight loss is sustainable and sensible and yadayadayada. But come on, I was way too hungry to have only lost a pound.
This week was actually a whole lot easier than the last. I wasn’t as ravenous or irritable and I feel as though I spent most of it in the zone, where I was semi-satisfied and feeling good.
I was thinking about how best to share my progress with you, and I know that seeing a number isn’t nearly as good as seeing a picture. But, honestly, I don’t feel quite ready to squeeze into some tight yoga pants and take weekly photos of my diminishing saddle bags.
I have been reading Stephanie Klein’s book, “Moose: Memoirs of Fat Camp” and it has stirred up many emotions in me. She captures perfectly the plight of an overweight preteen and I remember those experiences far too well. As I’ve been starting this weight loss journey, for the umpteenth time, I find myself a tad resentful that I’m one of those people for whom weight control will always be a challenge, an issue, a struggle. I know it’s a battle worth fighting and that taking the easy route (read: diving head-first into a pan of fudge brownies) would make me even more unhappy than the deprivation I feel when I go to bed with a rumbling tummy, dreaming of running naked through a field of french fries.
I have also realized that I pin far too many hopes and dreams on my eventual thinness. “I”ll buy sooo many great clothes when I lose weight”, “I’ll go on a holiday when I’m thin and I’ll look sooo foxy on the beach”, “I’ll be so thrilllllllled when I fit back into my skinny jeans”. All of these things imply that I am basically just waiting to be happy, waiting for life to start, and that I can’t really experience joy until I’m thin again. Which is not true. I want to be certain not to wish away these months of weight loss because they are filled with so many other great things to focus on: the growth and changes in our two daughters, the laughs shared with girlfriends, late-night conversations with Steve, and walks in the cool, fall air. Life is good, even if my pant size is a tad higher than I’d like for now.
See you next week!
17 Comments
how is it you have to try so fricking hard to lose one pound yet you can gain 7 with no effort at all? frigging diets. frigging halloween candy. frigging hostess.
sigh!
You pretty much make me laugh with each post you write.
Sucks that you only went down a pound, but at least you went DOWN! I hated those WW meetings where I’d walk out having gained something. Even if it was just .1 of a lb.
Thanks for the update!
You’re giving me inspiration for my own weight loss goals come February. And we’re all cheering you and your happiness (regardless of what the scale says) on. xoxo.
don’t worry you’ll probably have a big loss next week! i think a lot of people tend to have a big loss, then a small one, the a big one etc. rather than 2 pounds every single week or whatever. the awesome thing is that you stuck on it all week!!!
Ugh. I’m with you. I just started my diet today. I keep thinking about the Snickers minis in my desk drawer, but then I have to tell myself, “Will that taste as good as being skinny? And will it last as long?” Of course the answer is always no, so I just swig more water. I am cutting out coffee and that’s going to KILL me. I have 3 cups every morning. WAHHHH!!!
Have you read the book “fit or fat”? It gave me a whole new perspective and took the focus off of food and puts it on the energy we put out. It was a really good read.
I know you can do it. You’ve done it before and you will do it again.
I have also seen you enjoying the here and now – you’re doing great! Love you.
Stating your progress publicly is a great system. I used to do Weight Watchers but eventually moved off to a Weight Watchers-esque system of my own design. Anyway, I have a notebook in my desk and I write my weight in it each Tuesday. I’ve found its as effective as logging my weight on the WW site!
Give yourself a little grace. You just had a baby, you know.
As a fellow WW’er, I feel your pain. This week, although my pants feel a bit loose, I GAINED A POUND. SUCKSUCKSUCKSUCKTASTIC.
I finished “Moose” in one sitting. I agree..hit close to home. ‘specially all of the thigh-rubbing descriptors :-)
You are such a great writer – I have had so many of the same feelings you are having. Great to realize that being a certain size will not equal happiness (well, maybe a little bit of happiness but not complete). Go live life and enjoy every moment of it as you work towards your goal.
Wow. Those are some intense dreams, if you’re running naked in french fries…I only get those when my feet are too hot when I’m sleeping!
I’m in awe of all you ladies out there doing Weight Watchers. I have no will power. At all.
I also tend to sleep-eat…
Good for you!!! (At least the number is going the right way!!!) I believe you can do it – you’ve done it before!
Way to go Amanda! You’re doing well and we all knwo you can do it AGAIN :)
I just watched a movie – a tad cheesy – but it really motivated me to embrace the day and the now. (which has been a great motivator for eating right) It’s called “Peaceful Warrior” and it’s a film-festival type movie. We got it from Rogers so it might be easy to find. I highly recommend it to anyone on a journey towards a goal. Maybe it would add an extra bit of motivation for you when you feel you need it. :)
Keep it up girl. We’re all cheering for you!
I know the feeling. It is so easy to discount the time you spend waiting until “something (insert major life change here)” happens, and not enjoy all the rest of life, which is actually real life. I am so there.
I have been reading the best book on weight loss – The Four Day Win, by Martha BEck. It is all about the mental side of it, and how to work with your brain to not be hungry, and not emotionally eat. It works with any diet plan, just gives you the emotional skills to stick with it. It is helping me a lot so far. good luck!
Amanda, I have no clue how I stumbled up on your blog – clicking from one blog to another – but I love your writing and your last paragraph touched my heart! Keep at it girl! You have an endearing attitude about the not-so-fun journey – I’ll keep reading!
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