Did you hear the clouds shake this morning when I, at the top of my lungs, cried, "PHEW!!" after taking another pregnancy test and having it read negative? Because they did.
I am so relieved.
While I would have grown excited about a new pregnancy after a few moments of shock, the thought of caring for a newborn while Avelyn is just 15 months old makes me want to, I don’t know, cry, I guess. I am sure I would rise to the challenge but I am also sure there would be many tearful days, moments of despair, and possibly depression. That sounds severe, but I am just being honest about my capabilities. I do eventually want another child, just not for a couple years.
I know that "life is what happens when you’re making other plans", but for now I am thankful that some of my plans have yet to be thwarted.
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I’m glad you got a negative- since it’s what you wanted. You are a great mom and I know you would have handled it better than you give yourself credit for. ;)
I am relieved that you are relieved.I also remember that you were a surprise baby,and lok how well you turned out!I also agree with Jen,you are far more capable than you think,infact I always have to remind myself that you are no longer my baby,but a very capable young woman,who has definately surpassed me in the coping with a weird world ability!!Love you!
You will be a wonderful mommy to 2…whenever that happens :)
How cool. You are quoting John Lennon. I had 3 babies by the time I was 20 Amanda so I know you could do it too.
I agree with your Mom. I’m relieved that you are relieved. That would have meds for some great blogging, though ;)
Yay! For babies, and not yet babies, too. : )
I thought I heard something weird this morning!
I ‘phewf’ for and with you.
I totally remember going through exactly what you just wrote. I remember purchasing a stick at Wal-Mart and a little embarrased because my son was with me and only six months. I thought they would think I’m nuts for having another baby so soon. But it is O.K to have children 15 months apart I wish I wasn’t so funny about it all.
Avelyn is ADORABLE by the way!
I got pregnant when my son was 10 months old. I was all those things: tearful, despairing, depressed. I cried for months. I was puking while my son was learning to walk, I couldn’t pick him up and play outside. It was so hard. But now I look at my situation with my 2 year old and my 5 month old and have realized that although it wasn’t my choice to do it this way, this is a really great scenario. (And despite fearing that I wouldn’t, I really love my second.) So I am glad you got to skip this drama for now. But if it does happen, really, it’s not the worst thing ever, even if it might feel like that for a time.
I completely understand. I actually went through it last week, took a test and thankfully, yet strangely enough kinda disappointing, it was negative! I only have a 9 month old, and reading your blog just now sounds EXACTLY as if I were saying it. I was two weeks late, but my period is all over the map anyway! You feel relieved but @ the same time you are totally prepared to take on the responsibility and feel small spurts of excitement if it were to show up positive. God only gives us what we can handle, and I’m glad he lightened up the workload for both of us this time around! :)
You’d be amazed at what you can handle when the situation arises- I’m sure you’d do great even if you did have a “surprise”! But glad you have more time with just you and Avelyn to enjoy one another!
I’ve had three pregnancies in two years and let me tell you, it’s hard on the body. I can’t even imagine how difficult it would be if Ava was actually here while taking care of a newborn (she would be 22 months now).
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